Of the blogs I’ve come across since I was young, most of them ended up having random periods of inactivity. Life gets in the way, people forget, and “insert reason here.” It’s common, if not normal. What starts out as an exciting new adventure will inevitably have abrupt halts or change in some way. Yet, I was so sure I’d never have a significant drought on my weblog. It’s been several months, nonetheless. Where have I been, what have I been up to, and why haven’t I been talking about things!?
When life gets a bit more challenging overall than normal, time management and self-esteem become paramount. Without a fine handle on one’s situation, things fall by the wayside. Examples range from “life got difficult” to “I took on too many things.” In my case I had difficulty maintaining a basic quality of life as societal and personal things began to challenge me more and more. I would keep up with a lot of basic necessities, from eating well to brushing my teeth on the regular to dealing with a divisive society.
Even so, I would invariably fall behind on certain aspirations and projects. My social tank happened to be near-empty outside of my polycule. Going out siphoned more energy from me than usual. I was still myself, but my effective range drastically reduced for the entire summer. And I was doing well in Spring, coming out of a tough winter. Sometimes having experience doesn’t always mean it’ll be easier to handle next time. I’m the latest example. I was caught off guard, and it can take months or potentially years to bound back (depending on the person, what they’ve been through, and where they are at).
So as I try to reclaim my intent despite still being at a disadvantage, I’m blogging. I’m blogging because I freaking like public journaling, and I’m going to set aside some of my time and energy to do that much, certainly. Okay, maybe this is a blog about nothing in reality, but oh well. I wrote some words with some letters with some keystrokes with my mind, arranging said words into sentences that convey a thing. I’m happy enough to just manage that for the day.